How I Shifted My Negative Spiral

Yesterday was not a good day for me. It was quite awful actually.

I had been wrestling with a head cold for almost a week and had a bacterial infection that had me on three different antibiotics. Yuck.

I had been stressing about work and money and deadlines that were looming so intensely  it felt like I was suffocating.

And then there is the state of the world, which I find is taking anything I am stressed or upset about and expanding it times a million.

And on top of that while my meditation practice was in tact my yoga practice was not. I had not had a full long practice in over a week.

Plus I wasn’t having sex because I was sick.

And all of these things make me feel really good in my body, which helps me to feel really good in my mind.

So yesterday, it all came to a head.

It all exploded in a brilliant display of tears and self loathing and self doubt and despair and more crying and lots of sad faces.

It had been coming for a while. I could feel it. And yesterday I let it consume me.

But about 4 or 5 hours after that something began to shift.

Once I got all the shit out I was able to breath again. So I began taking bigger ones.

Then I started to smile. And laugh.

Then I watched New Girl reruns with Nick and laughed some more.

The worry and sick were still there but I was starting to shift it. Just a bit.

Then this morning I work up around 6am and couldn’t sleep. My chest was tight and my mind was full. And Nick was snoring.

So I popped in my headphones and started listening to Abraham Hicks, the original creators of the Law of Attraction concept,  on YouTube. If you’re new to them here is a quote that will give you an idea of what they’re all about:

Feel the power and the freshness of your now: You decipher the contrast. You know what you don’t want. You send out your rocket of desire of what you do want, and now you stand in a fresh new place; you want in a fresh way that you have never wanted before. And that’s what life is. In that fresh wanting, you summon another dose of Energy. If you can begin to savor the mere fact that you have desire right now, and you would stop trying so hard to have that desire be fulfilled and manifested in some physical format, then you would have it..

And what started to happen felt like a miracle. My heart began to soften. I felt more flow in my body. I felt more energy in my body. I felt my connection to all things.

So I committed this day to doing things that make me feel really good.

Things that make me smile. Thing that make me laugh. Things that bring forth those kick ass chemicals that literally shift my brain chemistry. Sex for example.

I decided to make that my #1 priority.

And when I gathered all my old tea cups with old tea bags from the night before I looked at the one Yogi Tea quote just before I discarded it. And my all time favorite and some what elusive quote stared back at me:

You are unlimited. 

Please listen to me when I say that we don’t need to stay stuck in our stories. They do us no good.

Sure we will feel shitty from time to time. Sure things will suck. But we must find ways to shift that shit. It doesn’t serve us.

And it’s so easy to get caught up and so busy that we don’t make time for what really makes us feel alive.

This is a mistake. But the good news is you can change it at any time.

You are a magical, infinite being capable of more than you most likely could ever imagine. When you start believing this everything changes. 

And what I realized is that the political unrest in the world was really taking a toll on my soul. And I was letting it. I was letting it filter into everything else in my life. It was eating me alive. So I’m done giving me power away to it.

I’m not saying don’t take action. Take it. But as you do stay empowered. Keep thriving. Because if you don’t. If you let it eat you alive, it wins.

And we are better than that.

The point of this life is to LIVE. To THRIVE. For real.

Always remember this.

So now I’d love to hear from you. What is one thing you can do today to feel amazing? To make you smile? To soothe your soul?  Could be anything large or small. Let me know if the comments below. Even doing that can create a shift.

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