Two weeks ago I used this blog to come out as bisexual.
At first the word bisexual felt like a cherry pit in my mouth that I needed to spit out.
It didn’t quite fit. I was still getting comfortable with what exactly that meant for me.
But still I shared this truth even though I cried after writing the article the night before posting it.
I’ve actually never cried before posting a blog. Not even the one where I shared about having genital herpes.
But this one I did. Because it felt a little scary for me to be putting out this messy clunky truth. It wasn’t full formed and yet here I was blabbing away about it.
But it also didn’t feel right to keep it in. Because it’s a part of who I am. And I am surely not ashamed of it.
Plus if I express a truth about myself best believe my self-aware ass has given it a TON of conscious consideration.
So out I came and then out into the world I went.
From the outside nothing changed. No one knew of my new identity. I haven’t gotten the t-shirt made quite yet.
But on the inside things, they were a-changing. Que David Bowie…
The way I felt changed. By claiming this piece of myself and putting it out in the open I was able to set it free.
In some ways feeling attracted to my same sex felt foreign, even though I pretty much always have been. But now I’m allowing myself to actually experience it.
I’m not ignoring it. I’m embracing the shit out of it.
When we deny pieces of ourselves they remain unexposed and raw as they haven’t yet been calloused by the world, so of course setting them free in such a delicate state can feel really strange and a little scary.
But I believe that once we set these pieces free we are simply becoming a deeper embodiment of who we are and have probably always been.
And there is so much strength in that.
So what about you? What truth are you ready to set free?
Maybe it’s just saying it out loud in an empty room so you can just hear your voice articulate the words.
Maybe you want to post in the comments below.
And of course you can always message me. I’m happy to bear witness to your amazing truths. It’s an honor.