Sorry I was Late, I decided to go to Therapy

This week has been wildly busy.

I usually write my blog on Tuesdays but I was packed with clients and travel from 7am-7pm.

So I planned to write my blog on Wednesday afternoon and get it out at the same time I do every week.

But instead I scheduled a last minute appointment with my therapist.

Because on Tuesday in the middle of the night I awoke to some breakthroughs that felt like they were a long time coming.

I’ve been doing inner child work for the past few months. Listening to these pieces of myself as a way to integrate a deeper awareness of what I need.

If you hadn’t guessed, this shit is intense.

So after these breakthroughs came rushing in I wanted to make sure I wasn’t missing anything. I wanted guidance in navigating all I was feeling and experiencing.

So I reached out to my therapist and it turned out the only time he had was the exact time I planned to write my blog.

I thought about the commitment I make to sending this out at a particular time each week and honoring that.

Then I thought about giving myself what I needed. I thought about putting that first.

Honestly that’s not always something I do. Sometimes I betray my internal compass because I crave something else. That shit can be hard for me to navigate. It takes courage.

So I’m sharing this with you because it feels important.

I’m sharing this because I want it to be a reminder that you are allowed to put yourself and your self care first. It’s not selfish.

You are allowed to break plans, disappoint someone, reschedule, call out of work, ask a friend to take your kids for a few hours, take space, book a massage or anything else you need to feel good.

Sometimes it’s really hard to do that but in the end it tends to benefits everyone. Even if it’s uncomfortable at times.

And I know it’s really hard to wrap your mind around this when there are responsibilities that can absolutely not be neglected. So find that spaces in between those. They may be wider than you think.