This is what I’ve got today. A whatever face with a side of curmudgeon.
The past few days I’ve only had a very specific kind of energy to focus on connecting with actual people and very little energy to connect on screens.
My heart is actually quite happy and content. In many ways my life feels like it is slowly but surely falling into place.
At the same time I feel mentally drained, emotionally full and quite protective of my energy.
I’m craving connections where I can see people’s entire faces and give them deep, precious hugs.
I miss going on a first date and making out with someone in my car! Even though I said I wasn’t going to do that anymore because I wanted to draw it out a bit. I still miss having the option!!
My gratitude for virtual connection is immense and plentiful. It is literally why I am still in business but at the same time I’m also full of it.
And this isn’t me complaining. I’m owning the moment and being honest about how I feel. If we hold that shit in we will just wind up resenting it.
This is where we are. This is what we’ve got to work with. It’s an overwhelming lot to say the least.
And as a result, it’s so damn important to honor our energy right now.
If you don’t feel like being on these apps then take a break.
If it feels like an arduous chore to text someone back, wait.
If you need a midday nap or bike ride and can swing it, take one.
We often place these demands of productivity on ourselves and neglect our needs even when our minds and our bodies are screaming at us.
It’s been almost 7 months since this all started and we are in the thick of it right now. We’ve been in the thick mucky muck this whole time but for me in this particular moment it’s feeling rather swampy.
Change feels intimately close yet wildly elusive at the same time.
So… we need to listen to our hearts.
We need to take good care of ourselves.
We need to hold our dear ones close, this includes ourselves.
We need to honor and protect our energy.
We need to wear a damn mask. And of course we need to VOTE. We’ve got this. I feel it in my bones.
And I see you. I feel you. I love you.
If you’re feeling like me right now I’m sending you deep long hugs and big belly laughs. Onward and forward always, with love.