For the past two years I’ve basically been consumed with relationships.
Having them. Healing them. Healing from them. Worrying about them. The drama they can sometimes cause.
As a result I’ve forgotten myself a little.
I think we can do this from time to time. Forget ourselves.
And by this I mean forget what moves us. What feeds us. What ignites and inspires us.
At least I did.
Not completely. But on some level.
But on Saturday while I lay face down on big cushy mat during my yoga therapy session a truth I had forgotten began to crystalize.
There is something that was a part of my life for the past 9 years that is suddenly vacant from my life. Something that fed my soul on such deep levels I hadn’t even realized how deeply until I experienced it’s absence.
Something that I took for granted.
Travel.
But not just any travel.
Humanitarian travel.
From 2008-2016 I travelled to 8 impoverished countries and raised or helped facilitate others raising over $300K.
I explored corners of the world most people never make it to.
I laughed and cried and held space with beautiful people from around the world, many of which I couldn’t even speak the same language as.
I’ve been licked on the leg by a cow, had a monkey jump on my head and steal my corn and was terrorized by more cockroaches than I’d like to count.
This was my focus. This was a part of my life. I’d go away for a few weeks or a few months and I’d LIVE.
During that time I wasn’t picky about what I ate, I peed in holes in the ground, spent days without wifi or electricity and didn’t need a plan.
I dug in the dirt and danced with the locals and sang with the children.
I experienced someone else’s world and perhaps contributed to their’s in my own special way.
And now it feels like that chapter of my life is over.
Except I recently discovered that I don’t want it to be.
I don’t want it to be something I used to do. It’s a part of me. I see that now.
It gives me perspective. It get’s me out of my head to drop me deeply into my heart. It allows me to give.
So now I know what I need to do.
I need to keep this in my life.
I’m good at making sure I get self care on a regular basis with meditation and yoga and eating well but I’ve let some of the bigger pieces that contribute to my thriving slip through my fingers.
And I’m not sure how this looks quite yet but I trust that will come.
Once we gain awareness and know what we want things have a way of falling into place.
So let me ask you…
What feeds YOUR soul? What ignites you? Delights you? Challenges you in the most beautiful of way?
Do that. It’s totally worth it.
And so are you.